Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Come on let's get praying!

Ruthanne's court case is on tonight to find out if she gets to bring home sweet "Bear." You can go see her post here to find out why it was postponed. Please go visit her blog and let her know you are rooting her on. I love this woman & can't wait to go and visit her, Andrew & sweet "Bear" next summer. I am praying she passes so I can go do a little shopping for her boys!!! Hugs to her & her boys!!!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Just a little off subject! But for a good cause!


(Adela is the on the left. She is the oldest in her family.)

I will be posting about our Christmas craziness later today but wanted to really do a post about a very special girl who has touched our hearts greatly. We sponsor a student to go to school in Guatemala through Mayan Families. I love knowing we are helping a young girl get her education. Young girls tend to drop out of school b/c their families cannot afford to pay for them to attend school and need to help their family with their siblings or making money. I love this organization so much. They make sure we receive updated pictures of her all the time. We also get letters, pictures she draws for us and her report cards so we can keep up with her progress. She asked us to send a letter & pictures which I am working on now. We did a garage sale this summer and used the money to buy her an onvil stove (alot of families cook over fires which is very dangerous) and some baby chicks. It was such a sight seeing her smile in those pictures after receiving both. If any of you would like to help just one child, just one family please consider donating to Mayan Families.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Please pray!

I met Ruthanne via the blog/FB world. She is a wonderful mom to Andrew also adopted from Guatemala. She will find out tomorrow if she passed court (which actually happens while she is sleeping) for her 2nd adoption from Ethiopia for her son named Bear. As a bonus you all can finally see how gorgeous he is. (I already know! Hehe!) I so hope she passes and gets to go pick up that baby. I don't know how she is going to do it raising two boys by herself but she will be rewarded with more love than she ever thought possible.

Monday, December 7, 2009

My baby boy!





Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Happy Belated Halloween



I promised Hannah I would get these up so she can see Cameron in all his glory. We went trick-or-treating with Pappaw T. (my dad) this year. He came down & had a lot of fun watching Cameron. We had just woke Cameron up before we left and he wasn't quite awake yet. He was a little shy at first but then figured out that he was getting candy & was all about it. He would say "Twik Tweet" and "Tank You" every time. Sometimes he would go back for more & of course they gave him more because he is so cute!

Fun with Friends Again!


(Yeah, they were done with pictures.)




(Driving Phia.)


(Looking at a plane together!)


(Monkey being a Monkey.)

We went to the Louisville Zoo a couple of weeks ago with Hannah, Dmitry & Cameron's girlfriend Sophia. It was so cute watching them together. It has been a few months since they saw each other and usually they are really shy for awhile. It took them about 15 minutes and they were all about each other. Sophia was mothering Cameron and he kept demanding to hold her hand. He would get upset if she would walk away from him. A few times when she was mothering him Cameron would yell at her "Bop (stop) Phia". They were actually having conversations together. They have really grown up since our first play date. I can't wait to see how their relationship develops. You can go to Hannah's blog to see more pictures. I just have a point & shoot and can't catch them quite as good!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

FFF-No Faces!


I am very late posting this but I have been having trouble with the pictures loading on my computer. This is Cameron & Dan's hands while they painted Cameron's pumpkins for Halloween. It is too cute seeing the two of them working together.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope the few of you out there that read my blog have a "Happy Thanksgiving"! The holidays are always filled with tears around here. Tears of happiness! You never quite know life until you have a child to discover it with.

I always remember being so excited when I was little about the holidays b/c my grandma was just so into it all and made sure I was always a part of that. She always made sure there was something to help her with. I miss her so much this time of year b/c the more family that was there the better. Now that she has passed away I feel like that has gotten away quite a bit. Now that I have my baby boy I making my own memories. I love watching him discovering and learning what it is really all about. I am so thankful to his birth mom for letting us be the ones to raise him and call him our own. If it wasn't for her my heart wouldn't be so full!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

The 3's are coming!



I am really trying to post more but something always seems to get in the way. Cameron got sick last week and who do you think got it next? Of course the nose blower, Mommy. I tried to not give him cough medicine since it is recommended not to but he was having such a hard time. Just a side note: My child is one you do NOT give Benadryl to. While most kids go right to sleep after having it my child runs around like he is on speed. So after taking the cough medicine for a few days he started acting up-BIG TIME! We thought for sure it was the medicine so since he was feeling better we stopped giving it to him. Unfortunately for sick me it wasn't that-just plain testing the boundaries toddlerhood. Crazy toddlerhoood! People keep telling me boys are harder-don't listen as well. Cameron has had his moments but was never that disobedient. Until now! He loves to do things he isn't supposed to and gives you the shit grin while he is doing so. Let's just say he was in time-out so many times he decided to put Daddy in time-out while they were playing last night. He even told him to sit and be quiet. Then when his time was up he told him "Mere please!" I know he understands it now that he has done that. I did ask him the other day "What part of No don't you understand? The "N" or the "O". His answer, "The "O"! That's my boy!

Friday, November 13, 2009

FFF-Beautiful Gifts



Yes, I am back. Sorta. I got a new cord but dumb-dumb me didn't think about the fact that the battery has lived out his life. The first thing I had to do now that I am somewhat up and running is Hannah's FFF. Of course my baby boy (although he is almost 3 he tells me he his momma's baby every day) is one of the greatest, most beautiful gifts I have received. We prayed for a long time to finally have a child and then to receive one and have to wait even longer before we could hold him. He will always and forever be my baby!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Getting off my butt!

I have tons of new pictures but they are on the main labtop. The cat chewed right through the cord so I have to wait for a new one. As soon I get it get ready for some Cameron on overdrive!!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

The friends we love!

Go to Hannah's blog to see what our latest adventure was with them. They were in Guatemala picking up Sophia the same time we were picking up Cameron. We never spoke a word to one another while we were there with everything going on and because we are both big shy birds. We met through blog & facebook world and now have playdates together every couple of weeks and for the first time in a long while Dan & I have found a couple we love hanging out with. I predict our two guate babies will be married some day but not until he is 30 years old. We love you guys too!!!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Just some pics!

Cameron & Sophia at the Loveland Castle.

Mommy & Cam at the Bengals pre-season game.

Cheesing.


At our 5th anniverary dinner. Melting Pot-yum yum.


Big boy haircut.








Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Getting back on the horse!

Unlike some people I have not had much desire to post on blogger. Maybe it is b/c of summer time or maybe b/c I am addicted to facebook. Well, not that bad. I will do all my babbling on this post and add some pictures on the next few. Our summer has been a little busy this year but mainly just on the weekends. During the week it is me & Cam. Where do I begin? We have had play dates with Hannah, Sophia & Dmitry (Phia as he calls her) at the Children's Museum, the waterpark in Louisville and just recently the outlet mall. Ham (as Phia calls Cameron) and Phia are madly in love! LOL! I guess I love hanging out with Hannah too!!! JK! I had my first annual A Gathering of Our Hearts in Indy in July. It turned our great but I will save that for another post. Cameron loved spending all weekend with the guate babies and I loved getting to meet all my adopt moms in person. It was so much fun and I hope it is bigger next year. We went camping with Mammaw & Pappaw (Dan's parents) in Brown County, Indiana. Cameron loved staying in their bus as he calls it & although we all smelled by the end of the weekend it was fun.

Dan's mom had her 2nd stem cell transplant 3 weeks ago and she is doing pretty good. She has multiple myeloma and had one 7 years ago. They had some stem cells left from the last transplant so she thought it was in her best interest to do another. It scared us but it was ultimately her decision. She gave us a scare here and there but seems to be doing a lot better. She still can't eat b/c of the sores in her mouth from the chemo she gets before but she is walking around and talking like crazy. That's my mom-in-law. (I just call her mom!)

Cameron is growing up like crazy. He is 2 and 1/2 now but loves calling himself Mama's baby. He is now 3 feet tall and 30 lbs and all boy. He is very orny and stubborn but I love him to pieces. He is so much like Dan & I it isn't funny. Every day I am told how cute he is & boy does he know it! He is so into shoes & clothes it isn't funny. Wonder who he got that from?! He loves to be out & about and really does get upset if we aren't going to see Phia his girlfriend as he calls her. He is very independent and gets upset if you don't let him so something. He has to everything including bringing Dan his boxers in the morning and helping him change his clothes when he gets home from work. He has to help Daddy with the shoe inserts, put his dirty clothes in the hamper, put his shoes away and then steal any change he has in his pockets for his piggybank. He amazes me every day the things he remembers. He knows whose house is off what exit of the highway. How does he remember these things?

I have been pretty busy just being mommy and a wife. I am happy to say that I took the plunge and got right into this get together we had last month. For those of you were there and those of you that know me I am VERY shy until I get to know you. I had to hand deliver the gift bags I made and introduce myself to complete strangers. I hate patting myself on the back but that was a VERY big deal for me. I do have to say I made some great life long friends. It was so much fun to get to hang out with Hannah & her family all weekend. They have been the first couple that Dan & I have felt comfortable with from the very start. We are all too much alike it is scary. Hannah, I think you need move closer so we can hang out more. At least that is what our social worker said!

Cameron's favorite day on our vacation!

We have been to Disneyworld already when we visited the in-laws last November but we both thought he would really get into being that he is officially obsessed with Mickey & Minnie. Disneyland in California is awesome. It is smaller but it is no nice to have one main entrance to get into both parks and downtown Disney. And it is open until midnight so we could take our time. When we first arrived we decided to get him Mickey ears since we didn't do that last time. While Dan was in the store getting ears I was outside with Cameron avoiding the crowd. All of a sudden here comes Mickey & Minnie right where we were standing. They were coming out to do their autograph signing & we were the first ones. Cameron actually got a whole 5 minutes with them all to himself. He was in awe & so happy to see them. He kept kissing them on the noses and they loved it. I, of course, didn't take him out of the stroller but it was so awesome just to watch him light up. He only slept for about 10 mins the whole day we were there. We went over to downtown Disney for dinner and went to their huge store. They have the biggest store in the world there and I am determined to go back just to Christmas shop. If we weren't flying we would have stocked up for Christmas. Cameron crashed so hard when we got to the car. He actually slept the whole time I was putting his jammies on in the room. It was the best day and I love seeing Disney through my baby's eyes.

Here's the pictures.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/40992311@N05/

Friday, July 31, 2009

Dodgers Game

I am really, really behind. Here are the pictures from Cameron's first official professional baseball game.


















Thursday, July 16, 2009

Vacation-Part 2





















Sorry for the delay. Between Cameron & I being sick, getting things together for the get-together and Cameron's new big boy room (pics when we are done) I have been busy. Thursday morning we headed to Universal Studios. Parking is so funny in California. They try to get you to pay $8.00 extra to park closer to the park. They try to convince you it is an extra 15 minute walk. Well, it is only 5 extra minutes and we enjoyed scoping out the shops for after the park. Cameron was so excited to get to go be crazy & have fun. He was a little scared of the guy dressed up to look like part of the statue out front. He cried bloody murder. There wasn't many rides there and he wasn't fond of the characters there but he loves being around people. He laughed at the shark from Jaws which was quite funny. We all crashed after a long day at the park.



Friday we took Cameron to the pier & to see the beach. He didn't get to go play in the sand b/c he threw a huge tantrum and wanted a nap. He did get to ride the old carousel there though. After napping we went to a Dodgers game. We got gear Thursday at Universal to wear to the game and Cameron talked about it all day. Poor Dan was a little scared to drive on the California Highways. I lived for a few months way back when so it didn't bother me too much. (Yes, he let me drive home.) Cameron was so excited about baseball but he was a little scared about all the cheering and kept crying everytime it was loud. The ice cream there was so awesome and he thought it was so funny that he got it in a baseball hat. Poor Daddy & Cameron crashed right after the game. (It was 1:00 am back home.)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Our first offical week long vacation-Part One

The view from our room.




Santa Monica Pier







Ocean views



Before our first night sleep.









Okay I am finally getting around to blogging about our trip. This was our first official week long vacation with just the three of us and it was surprisingly quite relaxing. I thought for sure with Cameron's sleep issues starting (he wakes up at 3:00 am and cries for at least 2 hours refusing to go back to sleep) and the time change he would be a mess. The night before I got only 2 hours sleep. Between Dan waiting until the last minute to pack and Cameron not wanting to sleep I was so tired. And of course right when we are getting ready to wake him up De*ta called and our flight was delayed an hour. An hour of sleep I could have used. He was pretty good on the flight until the last hour. He refused to sleep and kept throwing his toys to the aisle behind us.
















LAX is NOT kid friendly at all. Of course little old me packed an extra suitcase we didn't need and with the crazy traffic Dan got to be the one containing it all. You have to walk across traffic to get the rental car shuttles. We were exhausted and of course they had no car available. We finally arrive at the hotel to see the valet is full (the only way you are allowed to park) and no where to park to find out where to go. We finally squeezed in and went to check in to see papparazzi outside our hotel. Dan told me he sees our hotel on TMZ all the time but I just booked it because it was really close to the beach & we got a great deal. One of the guys at the front desk took us to our room and told us what was going on. Our hotel was very small (75 rooms) and it us U-shaped. The pool sits in the middle & we were on the 2nd floor. He told Dan to look at the lady in the blue dress. That is Leann Rhimes. There was a Christian Dior party going on right there and there was all kind of celebrities there. Dan & I don't usually get star struck but it was neat to see. We changed and went to get something to eat. As we are walking down the street the papparazzi are taking our pictures. Trust me we didn't look like we were at a Christian Dior party with jeans, t-shirts & flipflops. After we ate & walked around a bit we were in bed at 7:00 pm. Hey it was 10:00 at home! Of course Cameron had to sleep with us b/c there was absolutely no way to fit a crib in our very little room. We were sound asleep and the fire alarms start going off. We all woke up and I asked Dan if we really had to leave. I got some shoes, grabbed Cameron & off we went. It was 3:30 in the morning and couldn't believe our first day would end like this. They left the stoves on in the kitchen and couldn't figure out how to turn off the security system. Since it wasn't an emergency I took Cameron to see the firetruck. At least we got something out of it. I was so afraid he wouldn't go back to sleep but he did thank goodness.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Wonderful Wednesday

The love of Cameron's life!


Thursday, June 18, 2009

Love & Popsicles

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Here we grow again! (My 100th post)


Sorry for not posting in a very long while but the last month has been comsumed with alot of thinking. We are decided to add to our family and were all geared up to go with China in August when we are married for 5 years. Well, I came across South Korea and it was so much easier & quicker we on decided to start that as well. There are only so many agencies that do South Korea (you have to work with one located in your state of residence) unless you do special needs. We found an agency but they limited who we could use for a homestudy. Needless to say we aren't feeling comfortable with either one. After applying I haven't heard much of anything except where is your paperwork or where is your homestudy. While deciding what to do I spoke with Natalie who helped me sort out alot of questions I had about domestic adoption. Thanks so much for all your help Natalie. Well, all of you that know me know I go with my gut but tend to question my decisions sometimes. Going international just didn't feel right to me and domestic was in that gut of mine. Well, we have officially decided to go domestic. Thanks to Natalie I have a good group of agencies to submit our paperwork to. I am over the moon but so nervous. I did live with my best friend Mindy when my nephew (hey, we have been friends for over 20 years now) was born but I have never had a newborn before. Cameron was one when he came home so there are lots of stuff we still have to get. And we can't forget the cute baby clothes. Oh, Dan is in TROUBLE!


We just back from vacation and will post about our trip. It was the first relaxing trip in a long time!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Being A Mom!


I dreamed of being a mom ever since I was a little girl. I raised my brother while my mom worked to support us. I had many daydreams of holding my first born and loving her unconditionally. While all my friends were worried which college they were going to attend I was worried about when I was gonna be a mommy. After Dan & I got married we started trying right away. After a few years of no success we tried mild fertility treatments with no success. We had the application for adoption while doing the fertility treatments but I wanted to at least try one last thing before going on that road. We finally sent in the application & while doing the dossier received the referral for a little boy who was 12 days old. Exactly one year later we were in Guatemala holding him for the very first time as he balled his eyes out. I thank God every day for leading me down that road. I thank God that Cameron's birthmother had a big enough heart to let me be his mother. It is the greatest gift one woman can give to another. Cameron will always know her and know what a great sacrifice she made to make me a mom. Even though I have only seen her in pictures she holds a big piece of my heart. He is every bit like us. Very stubborn and hard headed. Very impatient. It drives me crazy but he is just like me. Very into his clothes & primping like his daddy. Very caring like his daddy. I have been given the greatest gift ever. It is a very hard & tiring job but it is worth it every day to see him grow up and become an independent & caring child. He knows when you need that hug & rub on the back to make the day go better. It is the biggest job I will ever have & it is the best job I will ever have. Being a mom just feels right!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Happy Birthday Nana!

On Monday my mom turned 48. Yes, my mom is young but I love that Cameron has a nana that will be around for a long time. We have been practicing saying "Happy Birthday Nana" and I finally got it on video. Mom, I know you loved hearing him say it on the phone but now you can see him say it. This is for you mom and we can't wait to see you on Saturday.





video

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Wordless Wednesday


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Can you help?

Please read this post on Kayleigh Freeman's blog written by Brent Riggs. I have asked everyone to pray for this family which I do every day. Yes, me! They also need help financially. Their daughter was born premature and after her last surgery is somewhat brain dead. They have no clue what the exact thing that caused it but she had blood loss either during or after surgery. She may not survive but their faith in God is unbelievable. Along with dealing with their daughter being in the hospital since the minute she was born they have been hit hard financially. Please read Brent's post and help any way you can. I did and it feels good to be able to do something to help them even if I don't know them personally.

http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com/2009/04/42709-guest-blogger-brent-riggs.html

Prayers & hugs,

Mindy

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Cameronland

We have been looking for swing sets for Cameron and finally found one we loved. Well, Dan fell in love but Cameron had to approve. We actually went to a different Costco to check it out and I couldn't find it anywhere. Then all of sudden Cameron points up and says Mama. It was clear on the other side of the store. When we finally got it it was the last one. Dan rushed to get the sod taken up and the yard leveled before he left for his trip. Of course he hurt his wrist while doing it. We had one Sunday planned for the guy to come put it together (yes, we paid someone. It would have taken Dan 10 years & who knows if it would be put together right.) and of course it rained. Well, finally this Sunday they came to put it together. Of course they weren't quite done & it started drizzling but they kept going. At 6:30 they got it done so we woke up Cameron (late nap) and took him out. He was watching them build it all day while he played outside so he was so excited when it was done. He got to play on it for about 15 minutes before it started pouring down rain. He hasn't gotten to play on it since b/c yesterday we had hail and today it is snowing. Only in Ohio!!!


video

Friday, April 3, 2009

FFF-Beach




Today's Favorite Foto Friday theme is "Beach'. I bought these sunglasses at Children's Place on Saturday on my girl's day out. He put them on and has to wear them every day all day. The first thing he says when he gets up is "Blue Eyes". He only takes them off for eating and sleeping. I know it isn't the best for him to wear at night but he is two and right now I am picking my battles carefully. Cameron has not been to the beach yet but we are going to California in June. We are staying near Universal the first 4 days and the last 3 days in Santa Monica on the beach. I am so excited. I lived there for about 6 months when I was 19 years old. I was completely broke and not working so I never got to enjoy much while living there. That is what happens when you are young and follow a boy there. Anyway Cameron is talking up a storm and really getting into things I can't wait to spend this vacation with him & Dan.
His new nickname is Chatty Cathy. He talks all day every day. Most of it I can understand but Daddy is still having a hard time. Dan has been in Vegas since Tuesday night and Cameron is doing okay with it. He did ask tonight if Daddy Home. He will be home tomorrow and I am so ready for him to come home. He goes every year but it is kinda good for us to be away from each other for a few days. We really realize how much we love and appreciate each other. He does so much for me and our family and I love him so much for it. He is so into his terrible twos. He has such a hot temper that he now throws temper tantrums for an hour to an hour and a half. I have no clue how he lasts that long but it wears me out. When he is home it doesn't bother me too much. He has become a little destructive at times so I put him in his crib with no toys and when he is done he lets me know. But a few weeks ago we took the car in for a maintenance appt. and he threw a fit the whole hour we were there and then an additional half hour after the appt. Everyone was staring of course b/c I wasn't picking him up and babying him. I try to comfort him but he pushes me away. I cried so hard the other day b/c I feel so bad when he gets upset. I have no idea how to comfort him and what to do for him. He refuses to tell him what he wants and it so hard to know what he wants. I am slowly learning how to handle it without getting so upset but it is hard with a hot-headed child. Why don't they come with manuals!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Scared to Death!

Ever since we were not selected during the committee for a child in Korea I have been really down. We started thinking that maybe this was a sign from God that we should go for a girl. I keep looking at the photolisting. Every day I check them to see what children are waiting in Korea. Some children have severe special needs and while my heart breaks for them I don't think it would be fair to Cameron to bring a child into our home where we would spend a majority of our time in the hospital if we can help it. The way it works is they are given a batch of referrals just like any other country. They go through & send referrals to families who are a matched based on the form you filled out on what special needs you would prefer. If some children are not matched they go on the photolisting. You can then inquire & request additional medical information for your pediatrician to look over. Sometimes there are a few families that request information. After so many they won't send out anymore information. Then they wait for those families to decide if they wish to proceed with the adoption. The committee made up of 5 social workers looks over every families information & decides who is the best match for the child. Even though we know we are not bad parents in any way it is very hard to hear you are not selected. I hurried and started getting all our paperwork ready for our homestudy to have everything done & turned in before our committee meeting. I only had a few documents to collect. Then we were not selected and I put the binder away for a few weeks. Our homestudy agency is waiting on me to complete the paperwork before doing our first visit. I just can't seem to get it together. The fear is coming over me more than I anticipated. Am I ready? Yes. Am I somewhat prepared for two children? Yes. Am I okay with not having that little girl for this adoption? Yes. The ups and downs of Cameron's adoption are just coming back after our one year anniversary. He was so worth every mountain we had to climb and compared to some families they weren't that bad but when we signed up for Guatemala it was 6-8 months at the most. It then turned into one year for us. Children in Korea are not available for international adoption until they are 5 months old. The wait is usually 3-5 months at the most but again you never know. And yes we found another little guy we are interested in and are still waiting on our pediatrician to go over everything. She adopted two girls from China so she understands so much and is really helping us by looking at this child's information. We inquired on Thursday and by Friday they marked his picture as no longer accepting applications. Yes this means that there are other families looking at his information right now. If we do decide to proceed with adopting him there is a potential for us to have to go to committee again if other families would like to as well. I think this is scaring me for than anything. Can I handle another let down right now? What if we aren't selected and it puts me to where I just don't want to do another adoption right now? I know this is part of life and you have to take risks to go after that ultimate dream but I can't but be scared. I am human! But that the same time I can't help but think of the other families. I have to let go and God will help me through it no matter what the outcome.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Am I the only one who doesn't have the umph to blog?




I have become an addict to Facebook. There I admit it. I am not on all day but I do check a few times a day. Mainly because I am doing the get-together in July. There is a lot going on with us. Cameron had his 2nd birthday party and it was a blast. I will post pictures & videos. We have our 1st family day on Friday. Dan is taking the day off and we are going to Newport Aquarium. We are spending the whole day together but that is what we do almost every day. We are a little concerned because while at Aunt Mollie's this weekend he became deathly afraid of their algae sucker. Hopefully when we see the big fish he doesn't freak out.

We are now looking at preschools for Cameron for the fall enrollment. I have to admit I have been crying about this. The thought of him not being with me all day is a little sad. I know he needs it and will be fine but I am very, very attached to my little man. He is growing up so much & he is so much fun to be around when he isn't teething. We are going on vacation in June to California and I can't wait. Not only to get some warm weather & sunshine but to watch how much fun Cameron will have. He is so into things now it is going to be so much fun to watch him play in the sand, ride the rides at Universal, see a baseball game & just be a kid. Hopefully he can handle the 5 hour flight there just fine.

We are working on our 2nd adoption now. We are just doing our homestudy now and really deciding on what program to go with. We were hoping to do Special Needs from Korea and actually found a little man we were absolutely in love with. Because we selected off a photolisting website along with a few other families our agency required us to go to committee for them to select who would be the best fit for the child. To say it was stressful is an understandment. We were not selected. I have found out who the family is that was selected and hope they love him as much as we would have. We were down for awhile but are back on the boat. Our child is out there but it will be when God decides. If we don't find a child from Korea by June then we will be going with Special Needs from China.